Craziness Continues

Thank you Kris for reminding me that it's been forever since I posted. :o) Things have been beyond busy lately with work and travel. I have been working like crazy. Late evenings, early mornings. This all equals a lack of sleep and an increased chance for late night snacking. I have been doing pretty good though over the last few weeks. I continue to focus on the messages that are in Geneen Roth's book. I am starting to be more mindful of my hunger. I stop and think about whether I am hungry and if I am what I really want to eat. So last night I wasn't super hungry and had a bowl of cereal for dinner. Not the greatest, but it was satisfying. For lunch I had had a bunch of veggies and chicken. I didn't feel deprived at all.

The understanding of when I should start eating is easy to recognize. Hunger pains are hard to miss. I pretty much wait until I feel that and then I have something to eat. Super crazy idea!!! The hardest part for me is understanding when to stop. I think what Geneen says though is so true - if you are eating for reasons other than being hungry you will never feel satisfied and will not know when to stop eating. Since you are trying to fill another void that typically wouldn't be filled with food then there is no real stopping point. And it's so true. I do feel when I am hungry that I get to a point when eating that I feel done. I am working on stopping at that point.

I have to keep telling myself that if I am hungry again in a little bit that the food will still be there. I am not sure why I feel like if I don't eat it now then it will never be there again. I am surrounded by food. Where do I think it is going? It's a totally crazy idea. I have never been without food. Except for maybe a few weeks in my first job when I was making only $18,000 a year. But even then I had boxed of Mac and Cheese.

So, I don't know where the craziness comes from. But I want to be in control of my eating. And I am going to get there. I may never be a size 2 - but who wants that! But I can be in control and happy with my life. Maybe a size 10. :o)

Hi Kris!! Hope all is well.