Well another snow storm and the desire to eat comfort food becomes a bit overwhelming. I think that we all end up being conditioned from childhood that snow means hot chocolate, marshmallows, warm cookies, etc. Mom always treated us when we came in from the snow. Things were different then - running up the hill with the sled just to slide back down really burnt some calories so all the added treats didn't seem to bother you. Now we see snow, think comfort food and cringe at the thought of going out in the snow to sled! So I stay inside and want the comfort food. So let's try to recondition ourselves to make snow = salad instead of snow = cookies. :o) Yeah right!!! Happy shoveling!!!
Well - today I am a bit sad. For those of you that know me you know that I LOVE animals. I have had a foster kitty in my house since Saturday and she is SUPER sweet. I sent her off today to the rescue organization that is going to get her adopted out to a great home. It was so sad letting her go. There was no way that I could have more animals in my house. I have enough already. It's amazing though how quickly she worked her way into my life. So I am feeling a bit blue at the moment. :o(
The urge to binge today wasn't too strong. It did cross my mind. But I was really busy this evening and went to the trainer tonight. I find that trainer days are binge free days. I guess after working that hard I don't feel the need to eat. So I walked Roxie, came home, had a bit to eat and here I sit typing a message. It feels good to write it out and let it go.
I'll get over letting Finley go. She will find a good home soon. I just have to remember that I was able to give her a warm home for a few days on her way to find her forever home. She will be adopted soon. She is too adorable not to be.
So - it's been 6 months since I have written. What have I been doing? Well it hasn't been focusing on choosing the healthy options when it comes to eating. I have been working out with a trainer twice a week so that has helped. But the scale has only gone up recently. I joined Weight Watchers again - not because I don't know what I should be eating but because it provides me another level of accountability and tracking.
I have a simple goal for the next 3 weeks - make healthier choices. They say it takes 3 weeks to change a habit. So this 3 weeks is writing down my food in my food journal. That is what I am going to focus on. By writing down I will see my food choices and where I can possibly improve moving forward.
I am going to focus on this blog again as a way to journal my feelings. I am still an emotional eater that uses food to suppress my feelings. I know that my issues with food completely revolve around my inappropriate use of food to soothe my feelings. I hardly eat when I am hungry because I don't get hungry. For those that don't eat through emotions this must be such a crazy concept. But for me it's a daily struggle.
So I will welcome myself back and pledge to blog at least once week as I work through my issues.
I am Alison and I am struggling with compulsive overeating disorder. I struggle with this everyday. I am hoping to use this blog as a channel for me to get out the feelings that I have been holding inside. It's time to break my addiction to food and start moving forward with my life.