Thursday, February 18, 2010


So I have been been very good this week, but I can feel myself ebbing to bad. I want to eat sugar so bad. I want to snack. But I also want to lose weight and fit back into the other 90% of my clothes. So I am resisting at this point.

I heard from my Mom on Sunday that she has been back on plan, so I have to continue with her. I also know that the spring is not too far away and I want to fit into those clothes.

Not too much to write today except that I am having a tough time and just needed to write a little bit about it.

I am strong!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Here We Go Again

Well we are about to get hit by another snow storm. I can't believe this winter! It has been horrible. I won't stop snowing. I am over it.

I am in such a pattern that when I am going to get snowed in - I buy all kinds of junk, comfort food. I know its horrible, but I also know that I am not the only one. Everyone seems to do this. But it is not helping me to get back on schedule.

I am really having serious issues with sugar right now. My addiction has taken OVER!! And I am letting it. I wanted to lose 10lbs this month and it doesn't seem like I will be doing that. I know I need to be more optimistic. That is part of my problem. I have lost the weight before and I have taken control of my life before. I know I can do this. And I know how great I feel when I am in control.

At this point, my sugar highs are more powerful than the feeling I have of being in control and losing weight. I just have to stop. Stopping tomorrow always ends up being pushed off and pushed off. I need to start now.

I will not put it off anymore!!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Copying Rules from Before as Reminder

Here are the rules I have thought of so far -

1.) I can only eat 5 times a day with nothing in between timed meals and snacks.

2.) Meals at restaurants are a protein, vegetables, and one single starch

3.) No candy, cakes, or processed sweets

4.) All main meals are a protein and a vegetable and sometimes a starch

5.) The only food I can eat is what is written down for the day. I cannot deter from the plan.

It's Been Awhile

Well as you can see I haven't posted since Jan 19th. I have really given into my addiction since then and have done very little to fight it. I am not sure why I have fallen back into this. I am just letting it take over my life and letting myself wallow in self pity. I am so unhappy with myself. I really need to get back on track.

I have said this before - I need to find my motivation. There has to be something out there that motivates me more than my sugar addiction. I have to really stick to something and cut out all sugar from my life. I am not sure how I am going to do this.

When I think about things, I can plan them out in my head for the next day. And then I allow myself to waiver and then throw off the rest of the day and sometimes the whole week. I have to go back to my post from awhile ago with my rules. I have to get back into my rules and live and breath them.

I have to do this!